my crazy life

Hi there
I am happy with nikolai. I love him so much
I want to be his wife. we even thaught about marriage and then go to russia. Back to sibiria where he is from.
But my faith to him had to pass a hard test:
Last saturday I wrote again to aleksandr, just to say hi. I asked him how he was, and he added me again in skype saying he was so sorry. I believed him. He was saying he regretted what he said and he had to think of me since that all the time. he hated himself and his life and all that. I won’t tell you more of this. I was sad too. He said he read my blog and knew we can not be together as I love another. I have not fully forgotten about him. never. He still owns a place in my heart.

александр, если ты читаешь мой блог, я хочу тебя скозать я всегда здесь для ты.
I will always be there for you. Caring for you
as a friend, as we cannot be together. It is unfortunately too late. But you still own a place in my heart.
и ты ещё на мою сердце
пока,
анна

Hi there!
I am trambling! I hardly can breathe! I need help! I am so full of love and only because one really wonderful person came into my life! Nikolai! Nikolai from russia! I love you so much, I love only you my only russian angel. my sibirian angel my love and pride, my sweetest one! My sweetest russian love! *sighs* when we have finished school, we want to go to russia and marry and have children. We have already planned so much. we want to go back to his home near omsk where he was born. I love him and I would do everything for him. I have one big advantage and that is that he is also in a boarding-school, just like I am. On march the 20th I will have my birthday party, as I will be 18 at 17th of march. I love Nikolai!
я тебя так люблю мой красвой, мою любовь! Приходй здесь мой ангел! пожалуйста! Оххх я ооооочень люблю тебя!
(a million kisses to you my dear)
Let me hold you for an Eternity. Also you will hold me for an eternity! I want you so much, I love you so dearly. All the other guys I’ve been with, they’re history! Nikolai is now. he is here and he is the present. he is now, he is here! Though he is so far away!

спокойной ночи мой хорошой! мой любимой! Мой прекрасной! Мой россиской ангел из сибири! Приходй пожалуйста! Сейчас! Не знаешь? ты всё что на мою сердце? Спи хорошо мою любовь, мой красивой!
милой, хорошой, красивой, прекрасной, … ооооохххххххх!!!!

Hey there!
I have at last found my love! Nikolai, this sibirian guy I shortly met and fell in love with. I really really need him and love him as my life! I don’t know how I was able to live without him! I miss you darling. but why are you not on klango!
I may invite you to it and then you will be with me almost each day and each time!
I wish you were with me my dear. I really miss you
You are blessing for me, you are my light, my sun and all that!

Hey there!

valentine’s day this year is a real blessing today. Since wednesday, nikolai and i are officially together! I at last have found my better half! I at last have found my sweet russian angel! I love him so much! Nikolai is a real blessing for me! So happy valentine’s day for all of you, a special happy valentine for my darling dear. He’s unfortunately not a member of Klango, but I hope he will soon!
I have to think of him all the time, he thinks of me too, day and night! That’s what he told me. I love him so much! I love him soooo dearly! Oh if he just would be here. My own sweet russian angel! *sighs*

Hi there!
Since my system was down I was not able at all to write into my blog. But there is new hope coming up for me since the heavy shock lasted for weeks on my back!
I may at last have found someone for me.
His name is Nikolai and he is a sweet russian who lives in Germany. He is a bit younger than I am and is the friend of my school friend from his old school. Anyway, I love his voice! his wonderful accent
He has a slightly rough voice and a rough russian accent, when he speaks german. Mmmm, that’s hot!
There may be something

bye for now,
annie

Hi there!
you are reading right!
I have lost all I Had! I lost my only pride. He sent me a message tat e doesn’t like me and blocked me on skype as well. Oh I am so heartbroken. I lost all I wanted. I lost all my hope and courage. I lost all my happiness. Now I am lonely and torned to pieces on the floor. I am like glass that has fallen down and bursted. I am like ice sculptures tey had gone or have fallen down and broken into a thousand pieces. That is how my heart feels like. I feel broken. No happiness inside me any more. No one could light me up. In this last times there only has been one! But I lost him. In this heavy times tere has been one though, wo made me smil again! Thanks to Outsidepro. Big tanks to you! You are a really precious friend.

greetings, celticmystique92 =annie.

Hi there!
A new year has come!
A very happy new Year to all of you. Also a special happy new year to my only love and pride aleksandr! I love you so deeply. I cannot think of someone else than you! Hopw this year is bringing all the luck to you my love!
A few days before new year, I atlast got my olympus! yay!
I also did some recording with it. It is easier than with the audio software, and the quality is much better than on my old screwed up laptop!
I just take the file, put it into recording software, put effects on and convert it to wav, cut it and put it back into mp3 again. My latest song I recorded was where have all the flowers gone.
I arranged playback and chords myself. who hwants to hear it give me a shout!
And I thaught of noone else but my dearest aleksandr!
had huge firework yesterday and guests came stayed over night and until 4 pm here.
By the way I at last sent the song to aleksandr. you know, this one I wrote for him. I have been to swizzerland a few days so I sent it 3 days after christmas. He asked me why I love him. I told him it is his special kind of way and his voice!
He didn’t say yes, also didn’t say no. he said just let’s not rush, as we don’t know each other so well.

goodbye for now,
annie

Hey there!
christmas was very sad. I didn’t get any christmas presents. Just simply because it hasn’t arrived yet. But if it had arrived, I would have got my Olympus! Yayy!!! Looking forward to next monday, then it should arrive. Anyways, I was writing a song for aleksandr, but I didn’t get a chance to send it to him. I had been occupied by my parents! Thanks to my mother!!!
I had to peal the potatoes for potatoe salad, take a shower so that mother could put the locks out of my hair with an Iron which was made hot. Was painful, but mother had no respect. she simply continued. Actually I like having streight hair hanging to my waist. And then cutting off my eyebrows! Ouch!!!
That was so painful. And this just for being beautiful?
This? A christmas present from my mother? Torture?

yours, anniec

Hi there!
Merry Christmas to all of you!
A special merry christmas to my only love and pride aleksandr! I love you so deeply!
Well, today I will get up earlier and start composing a song for him for christmas! It should express my feelings for him!
I really love you aleksandr, you did take my heart! You are the most precious person in my life, and I mean what I say.
so good night now. A special good night to my aleksandr!
моя милая!
ох, ты моя милая!
спокойной ночи ! I will dream of you my sweetheart!

Hi there!
Yes, you are reading right here!
Since that what I recognized yesterday, my life started having sense again. another sense like it was having before!
I feel that I could be so happy with him. And when I think of him, I feel power, strength and courage to manage everything I want to!
You have changed my life! I now know, I love you!
I love you so deeply! your voice, your kindness and the feeling you give me, that I don’t seem all the same to you, but you appreciate me, is so wonderful! If you just weren’t so far my dear!
Милая! моя милая! oh my god! Oh yes, that’s what you are, my honey, my sweetheart. I feel that I need you so much, and this is making me happy. I first only thaught of being just friends, but then you somehow, maybe even without knowing it, started to take my heart piece by piece! and now you have it! I give you also the rest of it, you can have it! But don’t break it please. Don’t break it like others have done before you. hold it caring in your hands please, so I will also hold your heart with care in me! Take all my love, it is pretty much. I want to share all my happiness and sadness with you!
You are an angel!
You are a present of god, you are a present from heaven, from the angels.
You are a real blessing to me!
God bless you, my only pride, my only dear.
God bless you, Aleksandr!
May all fortune of the world be with you! I wish you the very best my dearest love!
I’d kiss you all over a million times if I’d have a chance to.
Also holding you tenderly inmy arms, holding you tight at night. that is what I wish I could do.

bye for now,
annie